Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Cleaning House - Me at 25


As I am cleaning out rooms in my house preparing to move I find things that I haven’t touched in years.  Tonight I found CDs that I haven’t listened to – Happy Anniversary Charlie Brown (don’t judge me), Barry Manilow (I just asked you not to judge me), Levert, Club Nouveau, New Edition, Troop.  Let’s not talk about the cassette TAPES.  I found a size 6 bathing suit one night and I’ve not worn a size 6 since…hell, I don’t know.  Anyway, I’m laughing my way through it…when I get unstuck and am able to move.  (A story for another day.)

Well, tonight I found an old journal.  I read through it (had only a few entries) and I realized that I haven’t changed a whole lot emotionally.  I wondered if it’s a good thing or bad.  I guess it’s all about how you look at it.  I’m sure I’ll analyze it over and over again (read: overanalyze to death) and still not decide.

I wanted to share what I thought back in 1998 at age 25.

·        What I like to do

o   Read

o   Write

o   Go skating

o   Go to Bell Bottoms (club)

o   Exercise

o   Play on the swings

o   Sing

o   Go out to eat

o   Dance

o   Cook

·        If the job paid enough I would…

o   Teach chemistry

o   Teach aerobics

·        If I had this/these talent(s) I’d think I was the bomb…

o   Singing

o   Writing

·        If I could, I would…

o   Write a book

·        I wish that I was a lot less…

o   Sensitive to what other people thought about me

·        Other people tell me that I am…

o   Very comedic

o   Very sensitive

o   Sometimes the life of the party

·        I really get inspiration from

o   Iyanla Vanzant books

o   Bible

o   Muffin

·        Physically I feel that I have…

o   A lot of room for improvement

·        Emotionally I feel that I have…

o   A lot of room for improvement

·        I feel that I am…

o   A good friend

o   A good person

o   Overly protective of people

o   Always a good supporter

o   A nurturer

o   Very loving

o   In need of love and support

o   Too afraid to ask for what I want for fear of rejection

·        I am afraid of…

o   Dying

o   Rejection

o   Not having kids

o   Dogs

o   Snakes

So, that was me.  I see a lot of 2013 Single Lady in these responses too.  Can’t get into it right now but I’ll give my 2013 answers next.

Until then I’ll keep going thru my shit…physically, emotionally, and mentally.

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